I’m alive. Sorry I have not written anything in weeks, I’ve been working and sleeping a lot. Finally. There is a total of 2 days left in 2019 and only 48 hours before we start a new decade. Normally I would be so dramatic and already have an elaborate plan and outfit ready to go, but this year is different. I just think it’s weird that were starting a whole new decade and the upcoming next 10 years will be the time that I’m starting to shape my whole entire life out. Since this is going to be a whole new decade, I feel that I had such elaborate expectations of what it would be like, now that the time is here it almost seems just regular to me. In the next 10 years, I hope to have a successful job, living in a place I love and be happy doing my own thing. Just one month into my 20th year of life, I have been focusing more on what I want to do in my future and what I am currently doing with my life at 20 years old.
Not sure if many of you know from my many posts, but I just got back from New York and of course I fell in love with the city again. After staying in the fashion district and visiting some pretty dope places, I reminded myself of my goal of living in the city and having a career I love. I have actually been dong a lot of research and trying to get an idea on what I want to do with my life. This summer I’m planning on taking some classes at FIT in New York to explore the city some more and get connected to people in the fashion industry by learning in one of the greatest locations. One of the fields that I am fascinated the most in is trend analysis and I have so many interests that make me well rounded to think on that different analytical level. To be honest, last year I did not set any resolutions or anything that I distinctly remember wanting to drastically change in my life. I have been doing a lot of thinking and I came up with some new goals and ideals that I want to focus on during this 2020 decade. Many of my goals will help make me into a better young adult and to set a firm foundation for my entire life. On a realistic note, this might sound kind of crazy to be worrying so much on my future, but I really want to accomplish crazy things and I have to start getting myself ready for that time in my life.
My main mantra for 2020 is going to be “Never say NO.” This is just going to be a way for me to push myself out of regular comfort zone and allow myself to be open to all new things. There can be a million of new opportunities coming my way, but I have to get myself out there to get them. I plan on expanding my knowledge and reading more books starting from now on. I used to read a lot more educational books in my free time, but now all I want to do is read fashion articles and magazines instead of a good juicy book. Yesterday, I went to go see Little Women with my mom and my sister and it was such an empowering movie to watch about women just living their everyday crazy life and one sister creating a whole novel about their actions. Louisa May Alcott’s book was written and published in the 1800s and it speaks about her regular life during the union war. Thinking about it now, it is so unbelievable how different their lives were from how we live today.
One goal that I need to focus on in 2020 is to shop significantly less and to be a more sustainable consumer. After sorting through all of my clothes, I realized that I need to buy a lot less clothing because even if I change my outfit 3 times a day, I do not need this huge number of items in my wardrobe. I decided that I will have better karma in my future and will volunteer much more of my time instead of wasting of by sleeping. This has always been a part of my life but as I started getting busy with my own life, I forgot to give back and help others. Obviously, one major goal of mine is to actual focus on my blog more and actively post my random thoughts and opinions. I also want to complete more projects and actually create the new designs that I have come up with.
Reflecting on the past year, I have grown from the start of the year to where my state of mind is in now. I am much more focused on myself and what makes me happy. I have learned to let go of other people’s opinions about me and my main concern has just been about what makes me the best version of myself. I will continue to make positive, impactful decisions that will further lead me to my destined future. Through out this whole year, I have focused on what makes me happy and how my happiness is one of the most important things in my life. At the start of this year, I was depressed and did not have any major goals in my life. Now I am excited about my future, I have a better idea of where I want to be and how I can use my time right now to head in that direction. Here’s to the 20s.